Running on empty

I know God won't give me anything I can't handle, but right when I feel like I just can't take anymore something else gets thrown at me and I realize I have to handle more - however it really is hard.

I'm realizing the emotions of pregnancy are already coming at me full force. I don't feel like I had that exploding sense of not being able to control my emotions with Amelia as I did with Landen. Maybe this is a boy? Okay, lets not get started on that phony bologny I already know I will be hearing far to much of that again this time and I don't believe it.

So as my brain is literally fluttering around in happy, sad, laugh, cry mode - I'm sure it'll balance out - just when is what I'm asking. The nausea is coming and going, but the constant feel of being sick all over has taken hold of my body for good. Ugh, it's just not fun. Thank you Jesus for giving woman hormones to forget this part of pregnancy, because I don't know how I'd do it otherwise. I've decided that being pregnant with two toddlers is worse than no children and one child. Yes, it's definitely the worse. I can't stand to even think of how many weeks I have left of feeling like this. I know what I tell others - just remember that baby is growing in there because your sick, but honestly that's hard for me to grasp this time. All that keeps me focused is that my sister gets married in February and I should be better by then. Now if I look at that in a weeks - well I might as well faint - but if I look at the big picture I think her wedding is practically here so I can deal with it.

Amelia -- I think -- is teething. She woke up last night at about 3:00 am throwing up and has been doing it all day long with a lovely fever. Poor thing - she keeps locking her jaw and biting so I'm really hoping that's it. I really didn't mean it when I said - I don't want to go anywhere for Christmas. Well part of me didn't mean it!

Aren't I just a joy to be around lately? Winter isn't helping at all -- the older I get, the harder winter gets on me. I think I'll go with Kurt's grandpa to Texas for now on - live with the elderly to keep my arthritis from flaring up. Ha ha ha!

On another pregnancy note, I need to find out exactly how many weeks I am. I knew but my memory is like scrambled eggs up there and I seriously don't remember anything right now. *Teri still thinking of what I was going to tell you about that diaper*. The kids have been clued to A Child is Born the book - they love the pictures, even the ones that don't look so much like a baby. It's precious! I'm going to post pictures of the growing belly but I'm going to wait awhile. Right now I'm so bloated from water that it'd be stupid. I also want to do a weekly baby picture - we'll see how that goes though. I have my reasons for doing that - not enough energy to go into it though.

God Bless!