Friday, September 19, 2008
Is it where I belong
It was the first day back at FAMILIA this morning, and yet a part of me wants to be there another part of me really doesn't want to be there. I keep trudging along because it really does me a lot of good, but I dread going. Today all I could think about was - "Landen is the only boy and the oldest in the so called "babysitting room", I'm not going to make Amelia cry no matter what anyone says or looks like, I feel so distracted with my own thoughts, I never have the same answers and I do not feel like I belong anymore.' I don't know - it's not all about fitting in either, it's about growing closer to Christ. Oh, I don't have long until I have to decide to go on with year 3 either. I need this to keep me on track right now, I tend to fall away very easily - but I'm not sure if this is really what I need? How can you love and dislike something at the same time?
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DON'T LEEEEEEEAVE ME!!!!!!! HAHA no seriously I hope you give this some careful thought and prayer! As far as the kids go as you may or may not have noticed I wasn't exactly just sitting there quietly either! If you can think of anything that would make you feel more comfy you know I'll back you up on it!!!
Sometimes things become more of a drudgery than exciting. I think it's those times that we have to stick with it, especially something that helps you to learn more and draw closer to Christ.
I'm so thankful that my parents never made church stuff optional. They taught me that it's important to fellowship with other believers, and that just being there can really encourage the other people too.
When you said "I keep trudging along because it really does me a lot of good, but I dread going," it made me think of what my mom used to say to us:
"Do you think Jesus wanted to climb up on that cross and die for you?" :)
But there is certainly more than one way to grow your faith and to keep your family in the faith. Pray that you may know what is right for your family now.
You might also want to read the latest post at "Chocolate For Your Brain" about journeys and God's will.
You can find it at http://sherryantonettiwrites.blogspot.com/
Thank you for the encouraging words. I'm going to do a lot of praying on this! =)
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